Please, read this post. If you are planning or thinking about hurting someone in your care, call for help. Go to a hospital. Go to a drop-in respite center if your city has one. Do something to keep that person safe. You are not a bad person if you need and seek help.
You are not a bad person if you admit you can’t handle something alone.
You are not a bad person for having a breakdown.
Hurting a defenseless person who depends on you? That, IMO, is what makes people who kill their kids bad people.
If you know of other resources that are good alternatives to killing or hurting someone or links to bystander resources for how to intervene, post them in the comments. I’m talking anything from CPS hotlines to emergency drop-in center locations, from red flags to how to report. Anything useful.
Don’t kill your kid. Get help instead.